October 20th, 2017.
“Survival is the ability to swim in strange water.”
Don’t let your thoughts grab your heart strings and control them unforgivably. Don’t you dare let this life get the best of you, alright? Promise me.
Coming from someone who knows- your mind has the potential to do amazing things, but alas, it also has the potential to destroy anything it pleases.
I have been at the point in life where my mind took control of everything. It was on a warpath, fighting until I was hurt in the end. I didn’t even realize what was happening, it was like a movie that I couldn’t pause. If I could go back to that point, I would take myself by the shoulders and say, “Stop! Take a step back and look at you, obliterating yourself with careless abandon..” I would plead for this. But it wasn’t the logical side of me working things, you see. I was thinking the worst thoughts, the worst outcomes and in turn- it took me to a terrible place. A place I had never known, a sort of living hell inside of my mind. This affected everything.
Take a deep breath. Step back, just hold still for a moment. You control your life, and it’s far too short to let the negativity take the reins. Let go of the times you have been injured. Let go and set yourself free. AT least try. For me. Keep trying until you get tired of trying, and you let it happen. You have to hang in there, you have to trust me on this one. You are so alive, so powerful. Find that power instead of refusing it.
E.S., Sweet Spade